I used to drink a lot.
A glass of wine at 2pm on a Wednesday afternoon,
one at 2:30,
another at 2:45
and a few more until 6pm
when it is socially acceptable to unscrew the cap,
smell the whiskey,
and taste it in the back of your already raspy throat
because you smoked too many cigarettes while thinking
“God, I am so sophisticated”
and writing drunken nonsense that
you won’t be able to read
whenever you do become sober again
because you were too shit faced to write legibly,
does not make me a drunk.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
The Poetry Thread
This is a poem I wrote a few years ago.
Before I fell in love.
Before I fell in love.
What I Think About When I Think About Love
After a long pause,
I looked into his eyes
questioning this thing we've been taught to know as
'love'.
A deep, tender feeling of affection,
an intense desire,
an emotional attachment,
an ever lasting frustration to
conquer one another
through adoration and admiration.
Hoping to be faithful and loyal,
we are enamored with the consistency
of falling asleep in each others arms
and waking up a tangled mess of
sheets and legs,
satisfied with the voids no longer empty
we could not have filled alone.
Relying on our bodies to keep warm,
dependent on our skin to sooth restless concerns,
surviving everyday
through beating hearts,
steady breaths
and tenacious thoughts of one another.
Compulsively fixating on
his mouth, and my lips,
his laugh and my smile.
Captivated by habitual routines
performed out of excessive need
to be conquered,
to be adored,
to just feel love at its purest,
pretending to be pure
but still wondering
what we could be missing.
This, love is no longer just a mere liking to another,
but a sick arrangement between two people
drawn together in order to continue their own existence.
He looked at me and said,
“I love you”,
and surely, I will reply,
“I love you, too”.
Making Myself Work -The Stuck Indoors Thread
Time: 2:30 pm
Location: Alex's computer listening to Air as my ankle thumps and thumps from the blood rushing to it's rescue, not helping but swelling the injury (which was really me just hitting the little bone on the inside of my ankle against the skateboard over a week ago, yet it's still bruised? Preventing me from continuing my "skating training"). At the computer, even though it is a beautiful August day and I should be by Kellie's pool, or the beach waiting for the tide while soaking in the sun.
Thoughts: Yesterday I saw a comedian (the name escapes me but he's a character in the show Arrested Development) talk about McDonald's. This is me paraphrasing it-
If McDonald's stopped advertising for like four months, people wouldn't forget. They're not going to be like
"Where'd McDonald's go?"
just because they aren't being force-fed Grade D meat at value meal prices. If McDonald's didn't advertise for just four months, they would save millions of dollars that could be put back in the system. Starting maybe by paying the employees a dollar extra, so when I go to McDonald's I don't have to deal with an understandably pissed off 19 year old, sweating over the 900 degree frialator thinking
"why am I not selling drugs?
Location: Alex's computer listening to Air as my ankle thumps and thumps from the blood rushing to it's rescue, not helping but swelling the injury (which was really me just hitting the little bone on the inside of my ankle against the skateboard over a week ago, yet it's still bruised? Preventing me from continuing my "skating training"). At the computer, even though it is a beautiful August day and I should be by Kellie's pool, or the beach waiting for the tide while soaking in the sun.
Thoughts: Yesterday I saw a comedian (the name escapes me but he's a character in the show Arrested Development) talk about McDonald's. This is me paraphrasing it-
If McDonald's stopped advertising for like four months, people wouldn't forget. They're not going to be like
"Where'd McDonald's go?"
just because they aren't being force-fed Grade D meat at value meal prices. If McDonald's didn't advertise for just four months, they would save millions of dollars that could be put back in the system. Starting maybe by paying the employees a dollar extra, so when I go to McDonald's I don't have to deal with an understandably pissed off 19 year old, sweating over the 900 degree frialator thinking
"why am I not selling drugs?
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Good News GA -The Current Events Thread
Good News
Oglethorpe Mall in Savannah, GA. -A new state of the art, eco-friendly library has been built. LEED certified, it comes equipped with lights on sensors that will turn off if there is no activity in that particular area. The bathrooms use low-flow water fixtures and even the carpets and paint are environmentally friendly.
The two story building offers a 200 occupancy auditorium, a classroom, a puppet stage, an area to serve the blind and physically handicapped, and --a teen room?
Or Is It?
This generous, new building cost over $15M and is still looking for funds to hire a staff. Because they don't have the sufficient funds to hire a new staff, they are closing Oglethorpe Mall a few hours or days a week, and are cutting the open hours of both The Savannah Bull St. Library and this new library from an original 70 hours a week to 30 hours.
So what will happen to the people whom you would normally see at The Savannah Bull St. Library sitting at the computers, desperately searching for jobs?
And the original staff at The Savannah Bull St. Library whose hours will be cut back?
Would it have been better to just improve on the already generous Bull St. Library?
Though the new library will cost the old library staff hourly wages, and library users hourly use; the new library will attract people from a different part of town. Now job searchers in Southside Savannah will have somewhere to go when in need of the generous resources the new library is supplying.
So congratulations, to the new Oglethorpe Mall Library!
Oglethorpe Mall in Savannah, GA. -A new state of the art, eco-friendly library has been built. LEED certified, it comes equipped with lights on sensors that will turn off if there is no activity in that particular area. The bathrooms use low-flow water fixtures and even the carpets and paint are environmentally friendly.
The two story building offers a 200 occupancy auditorium, a classroom, a puppet stage, an area to serve the blind and physically handicapped, and --a teen room?
Or Is It?
This generous, new building cost over $15M and is still looking for funds to hire a staff. Because they don't have the sufficient funds to hire a new staff, they are closing Oglethorpe Mall a few hours or days a week, and are cutting the open hours of both The Savannah Bull St. Library and this new library from an original 70 hours a week to 30 hours.
So what will happen to the people whom you would normally see at The Savannah Bull St. Library sitting at the computers, desperately searching for jobs?
And the original staff at The Savannah Bull St. Library whose hours will be cut back?
Would it have been better to just improve on the already generous Bull St. Library?
Though the new library will cost the old library staff hourly wages, and library users hourly use; the new library will attract people from a different part of town. Now job searchers in Southside Savannah will have somewhere to go when in need of the generous resources the new library is supplying.
So congratulations, to the new Oglethorpe Mall Library!
The Thoughts Thread -Took in the good out of a bad movie
Last night, under the wrath of a ruthless migraine, I was left with nothing better to do then catch up on contemporary film such as "What Happens in Vegas".
And I must say, I did shamelessly laugh out loud here and there, because after all, Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz are pretty funny people.
One line that struck me, however, was when the judge played by Dennis Miller said
"Gay people aren't ruining marriage -YOU people are"
We people, the straight people, the 19 year old Baby Mamas and and 21 year old Fathers of 3.
Our society is battling with the issue of gay couples to be legally married because it goes against the sanction of marriage -yet we forget that just a few years ago, divorce was not an option, now, divorce is a back-up plan.
"If it doesn't work out, we'll just a get a divorce. fuck it"
What's going to happen to the cute 85 year old couples that have been married for 50+ year?
Will there only be a bunch of 79 year old bachelors and slutty women, wrinkled up but still in stilettos at clubs and bars waiting, hoping for their "true love", the one they can die with (in 5 to 10 years tops)?
What ever happened to "'Til death due us part", "Through sickness and in health"?
Have we become far too comfortable with the easy way out?
And I must say, I did shamelessly laugh out loud here and there, because after all, Ashton Kutcher and Cameron Diaz are pretty funny people.
One line that struck me, however, was when the judge played by Dennis Miller said
"Gay people aren't ruining marriage -YOU people are"
We people, the straight people, the 19 year old Baby Mamas and and 21 year old Fathers of 3.
Our society is battling with the issue of gay couples to be legally married because it goes against the sanction of marriage -yet we forget that just a few years ago, divorce was not an option, now, divorce is a back-up plan.
"If it doesn't work out, we'll just a get a divorce. fuck it"
What's going to happen to the cute 85 year old couples that have been married for 50+ year?
Will there only be a bunch of 79 year old bachelors and slutty women, wrinkled up but still in stilettos at clubs and bars waiting, hoping for their "true love", the one they can die with (in 5 to 10 years tops)?
What ever happened to "'Til death due us part", "Through sickness and in health"?
Have we become far too comfortable with the easy way out?
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